Knowing a certain freedom and then having it go away, or never knowing until it was too late and that freedom not being an option anymore??
I'm not thinking in heavy duty terms of freedom or lack thereof, but rather am thinking about young adulthood. While it used to be the norm to go from parents' house into a married household of your own, it's now the norm to have your young adult life all to yourself, for a protracted amount of time, before entering into a blessed union that may or may not include children, but which will still limit the freedom you once had. (Or course, many choose to not enter into any union, but I'm thinking the freedom of having all of your options still erodes with time.)
I've pondered this question for awhile... even before I knew the freedom of young adulthood and then chose willingly and gleefully to leave it, but it came up again the other day while the Eldest Lamblet was reading one of my books from the shelf Grizzled refers to as the "Women's Studies" shelf (always said without a lick of sarcasm...Of course I could refer to all of the other history books as "Men's Studies"...) One thing she mentioned was that she wished women had written more about themselves... even when they did write about themselves.
I had to agree. I've often been disappointed when reading historical diaries since the average person so often wrote little about their inner life, their thoughts, something I've always enjoyed... finding out what makes people tick, what they're really all about while showing the world their shiny, presentable sides. I wish the diary entries had included something like:
April 23, 1883
If John Robert walks in with his muddy boots one more time, I'm going to scream! Apparently I'm only here to cook and clean. We've been apart all day. Doesn't he wonder what wonderful insights I've had while doing laundry down by the stream?!? Doesn't he want to know that I've rethought his underclothing and am thinking that a much smaller article of clothing would not only be easier to clean, but would also be more attractive?? I foresee a day when attractive men are selling undergarments by the power of their own good looks!!! But until then... I scrub. ~Mrs. John Robert Beckham
The usual diary entries were more about the weather, who came to visit, what crops had failed and who was sick. It seems they rarely wrote about how they felt about this. I've often wondered though if they knew how they felt about this or if they just took it as par for the course. Was feeling and acknowledging those feelings something that emerged with the easing of daily life thus giving more time for introspection??
But, back to my original question... I wonder if a women (or man) or a certain era missed the freedom of young adulthood if they didn't get it, and in this case, I'm thinking people only a generation or two removed. Did the woman/man who raised their children in say... the 40's/50's miss the freedom of being out on their own and discovering themselves because they went straight into another nuclear family situation? Did a woman know she maybe hadn't truly *discovered* herself because she went straight from her father's house into her husband's house? While my first inkling is they probably didn't... at least not at first, I have to second guess myself since so many woman of a mature age left those confining roles to indeed, find themselves.
Did they only want to *find themselves* or experience a level of independence once they realized younger generations were doing this as a normal rite of passage or is this yearning, to varying degrees, in the average human?
Which is more challenging, moving from one household with parents/children, etc, into your own household as a parent with children and never knowing that freedom of being on your own, or is it, being on your own for some protracted amount of time and then moving back into the traditional setting of marriage and family. I don't care how much you love the people you're with, there are some days when you want to get off of work, come home and just do whatever the hell you want which might also include quitting that job you're merely keeping for your family's sake.
Do you miss this freedom more if you had it or if you never got it??
(And no, I'm not going through a midlife crisis... not anymore than the average person anyhow... and I also rememeber that I spent huge amounts of my *freedom* searching for the Mr. Wonderful who would rid me of it.)
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