Spent a lot of time in the dirt this weekend... planting a few remaining things, pulling out lots of overachieving weeds or overly zealous cilantro or chives. It was lovely out... sunny, warm, but with a nice, cool breeze. It was a weekend to be spent outside. At first I thought I'd rather be doing anything outside other than weeding, but as usual, if I just get into it, I swear, I feel the mental knots loosen and the superfluous thoughts just spill out into the ground. At one point, I remember being aware of the fact that the mental transition had taken place and I was observing it. I was in the dirt, pulling away the last few weeds, sifting out those that had fallen back to the ground, when I realized, I wasn't thinking, my head felt empty and I felt like I could sift through that patch of dirt for hours especially if it meant a vacation from nagging thoughts.
I love dirt, love messing with dirt. I don't mind getting dirty. Never have. When I was little, a favorite pastime of friends and one of my siblings, was making mud/clay cubes from chunks of clay that we had unearthed. The ultimate version of this was a visit to my paternal grandparents when they had a house that was on a huge stretch of wooded land that ended up at a creek, a creek that was filled with orange clay. My grandfather would help us dig it out and we'd make little animals out of it. If our visit was long enough, long enough to let the animals dry adequately, he'd let us glaze and fire them. It was amazing, from clay taken out of a creek to shiny little animal in your hand. I wish I still had one.
One other thing that my grandfather would do was send us on safaris in that huge yard. He had a large stack of photos of animals from the dioramas at the American Museum of Natural History. He take the pictures and would hide them all over the wooded lot. We'd hunt in rotting tree trunks, under piles of leaves, up in trees, until we had found the animal he had directed us to get. We all loved it. After my grandfather's death, almost every grandchild wanted those photos. I think we each decided to take one. I still have my kangaroo.
When my eldest lamblet was about 3 or so, we still lived in the city, but had a courtyard patio that had garden beds in it. Grizzled and I planted quite a bit in those beds and got quite a bit out of them considering their small size. When I'd go out to work on them, I'd take EL out to dig in them as well. I'd tell her that our building had been there a long time and that Chicago was an old city so who knows what she'd find when she dug. I'd seed the dirt with a few items beforehand so she wouldn't be totally frustrated if she didn't find anything. Over time I buried an old earring, a few coins, a shell, a little ceramic figure or two from a box of Rose Tea. She'd dig and dig and sure enough she'd find something. If she dug long enough, she'd find something that I hadn't even planted, as I suspected she would. I asked her to imagine who it had belonged to and how did it end up there... what was the story. If I play in the dirt or dig long enough, I find something as well. Peace of mind. No story, just peace and quiet.
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